I have to admit; this week I have been really off. It just seems like I'm in a gloomy place. I hate that feeling. It's not really that I feel like anything is wrong or that anything bad will happen. I think I have just disappointed myself. I'm not perfect mind you but I did something that was totally not me. I won't tell you what it was but I will tell you that I have to live with that for the rest of my life. Nobody lost their lives, nobody was injured, I just did/said somthing that I'm not proud of.
I guess it's just stupidity on my part. Why I did it I cannot tell you; but I can say that it was stupid and I hope that I don't ever fall in that trap again. I just hope that with time and a lot of contemplating I can learn to forgive myself and hope that there are not hard feelings left inside me.
I just had to post this. It's theraputic and I like it. I know those who read this will ask questions but I will not answer any of them. I just wanted to write it down so that I could come back and see this post and be a better person and remind myself why stupidity is not good.